Can you believe it's 2033 already? I'm still writing 32 on nearly
everything. Seems like yesterday I was sitting in first grade
celebrating the aboloshiment of the constitution after the Great Replacement.
I know we haven't really chatted since Christmas. Sorry. Anyway,
I have some difficult news and I really didn't want to call and
talk face-to-face.
Ted's had a promotion, and I should be up for a hefty raise this
year if I keep putting in those crazy hours. You know how I work
at it. Yes, we're still struggling with the bills.
Timmy's been "OK" at kindergarten, although he complains about
going. But then he wasn't happy about day care either, so what can
I do?
He's been a real problem, Mom. He's a good kid, but quite honestly
he's an unfair burden at this time in our lives. Ted and I have
talked this through and through and finally made a choice. Plenty
of other families have made it and are much better off.
Our Pastor is supportive and says hard decisions sometimes are
necessary. The family is a "system," and the demands of one member
shouldn't be allowed to ruin the whole. He told us to be prayerful,
consider ALL the factors and do what is right to make the family
work. He says that even though he probably wouldn't do it himself,
the decision really is ours. He was kind enough to refer us to a
children's clinic near here, so at least that part is easy.
I'm not an uncaring mother. I do feel sorry for the little guy. I
think he overheard Ted and me talking about "it" the other night.
I turned around and saw him standing at the bottom of the step in
his pj's and the little bear you gave him under his arm and his
eyes sort of welling up.
Mom, the way he looked at me just about broke my heart. But I
honestly believe this is better for Timmy, too. It's not fair to
force him to live in a family that can't give him the time and
attention he deserves. And PLEASE don't give me the kind of grief
Grandma gave you over your abortions. It is the same thing, you
know.
We've told him he's just going in for a vaccination. Anyway, they
say the termination procedure is painless. I guess it's just as
well you haven't seen that much of him.
Love to Dad
Dear Mom,
Jane